get thin

Guys and Girls,

I have been struggling with my weight for two decades. I have tried practically everything. Let me tell you that recently, on one of my many searches for a better way to win this struggle I came across Tim Ferriss and his diet.

It is the best thing I’ve ever tried. It is realistic and effective.

Try it out!

http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/blog/2007/04/06/how-to-lose-20-lbs-of-fat-in-30-days-without-doing-any-exercise/

I haven’t lost anything.

I’m not sure if its because I’m doing too much…or if I’m eating something wrong or something.

It’s really frustrating. Now I understand why some people get surgery or whatever.

I totally binged today. I learned a few things from it though.

1. If you travel without buying fruits and veggies before hand, everything goes downhill.

2. I resolve emotional stress through binging (how can I change this?!)

What happened was I traveled to Dallas. So I had the stress of travel on me and then I got a speeding ticket (the first one ever). It sent me into a flurry because I’m so afraid to screw up after I finally gained my parents’ trust. Plus I was lost so I walked into a gas station and there were twizzlers (my vice). So then I downed a whole thing of those and sent my body into a rage of hunger that didn’t stop until I finally stuffed a whole calzone and side salad into my fat fucking face. I feel so angry at myself…I feel like I’ll never feel beautiful and thin ever. To let you in on a little secret…I tried to throw it up because I so upset but I couldn’t…..I wish I could have been strong enough to resist today.

How I will prevent this in the future:

1. Bring along grapefruits
2. Before walking into a gas station really coach myself not to give into my vices.
3. If I get mad or upset, scream instead of eat.

I can forgive myself for this and make up for it tomorrow by being extra healthy and working out more.

stepping on the scale this morning.
130

I love feeling this way.
I’ve come up with some rewards (always gets me going). If I make my first week goal I’m going to buy some new make-up and dye some of my hair an interesting colour. I feel a lot more beautiful when I wear make-up (isn’t that strange?) and feeling beautiful always helps me to keep going on my diet.

An interesting observation: apple cider vinegar is disgusting but it makes the hunger feel like its evaporating instead of like when it feels crushed by a huge meal. Give it a try…just sip a small bit of it over a period of time.

SW: 137
CW: 131
in four days: 127
GW week 2: 120 (this will be the hardest week)
GW week 3: 117
GW week 4: 115

I’ve been running, guys. I’m sort of getting addicted to it…I have a tendency to get addicted to things (which is why I’ll never drink or do drugs or cigarettes or tattooing).

Keep posting!!!! Support each other….yay!!!

I’ve been dieting and exercising my whole life. I have no idea why I am so flabby. I’ve eaten just fruits and veggies for a week straight rollerskating to the art store everyday and I didn’t lose an ounce. The only time I can ever lose weight is when I’m REALLY starving and exercising crazy (like two hours a day).

One cool thing though is after eating just fruits and veggies for a week my craving disappeared I didn’t even WANT to eat candy or pizza like I used to.

I just wish I could accomplish this

So I haven’t checked in on the scale in a while…I’m planning to on Sunday. I’ve been getting better at running (a knee brace really helped me do this). I now run four miles.

A little theory I’ve been thinking lately is about diet soda (my vice). I’m thinking it might be the cause of my increased appetite (spelling?). So I think I’m going to cut it out of my diet spectrum. I’ll let you know how it goes.

SW: 137
CW: 131
GW week 1: 127
GW week 2: 120
GW week 3: 117
GW week 4: 115

celery is disgusting but I eat a bunch of it and then chase it with a low cal (and delicious) beverage. This is pretty low in calories and makes for a full feeling.

I’ll keep you guys updated with cool tricks I’ve discovered. One thing I noticed about myself is that I tend to eat things just to get rid of the after taste of something I just ate. I’ve been trying to drink something (like tea) or chew gum instead.

I’ve noticed something about us….we don’t eat enough. I started thinking about what our bodies must be thinking (oh my god there is a famine, shut down everything and store up!!). So I’ve decided something about the way I am going to work….I’m just going to eat small things every few hours. Small healthy things I honestly don’t think people can really keep up on starvation. Girls, we weren’t made like that.

Small
Often
Healthy

+

Fun
Long
Exercises

Tell me what you think (I love that kind of stuff).

today was kind of bad
mostly because I was dealing with breaking my engagement.

so I had coffee and an orange for breakfast, one of those cute hummus things (only 80 calories) and a grapefruit for lunch…and….oh here it comes….chocolate cake (ouch) and a salad for dinner (at the ritzest place I could think of). The really annoying part is my injured legs (fell when i was roller skating at top speed, should I sue the city?).

My plan is to run like a mother once I heal (even though before the injury it hurt my knees to run….hey wait…I’m that desperate).