fall out of love

This is proving harder than i thought. It’s a slow process that looks grim now. But time heals all wounds i guess

So i didn’t know if this was possible but i really think that i’m close. After the recent devolopments that have happened i think it needs to happen. For my sanity if not just to move on. You know how you look back at all the good things that you did together. Just the small things.
Like:
seeing a simple smile on her face
little gifts or suprises (you did this more than you thought you did)
making her laugh
just loafing around with no one but you two
sleeping next to other
having dinner together
riding in a car for long amounts of time doing absolutly nothing.

I could go on forever but all that good feels like a lie now that i know what i know and what she did. It’ll take time but i have hope.

What do you do when you can no longer love the one that you love. You’ve been left behind and moved on behind the scenes and there is nothing that you can do. What can you do?? Nothing. You just drive on and try to live. I need some love and some affection, but no one can give me what i need except that one. And i don’t think she can fullfil what i need anymore…I’m lost in a sea of emotion with no escape right now.

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting by heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

I don’t know if i can do this. It’s going to be a challenge but when you are no longer loved you have to try. You know i’ll miss you and always love you. Don’t forget what we had.