be okay

I just don’t want the mood swings anymore the manic euphoria one hour and the deep depression the next. I just want to have “steady feelings” for once, without the use of meds. For the sake of my kids and husband…. it would be nice to always know that Mommy is going to be in a “good mood” instead of “what is it today”? Please help me. help help help help help help help help help help help help help help