Become more photogenic

So I had my annual work do last night, and made a concerted effort to stick around and actually be in the photos this time. But when the pictures got sent round this morning, mine were even more hideous than ever! I had tried to smile, but only one side of my face worked (maybe the alcohol?) and I ended up looking like a frightened stroke victim.

On the plus side, my skin looked really good, so I guess that’s a start. I’m going to practice symmetrical smiling on cue – it’s so hard!!

This might seem like a vacuous goal to have, but I would love to have a permanent record of friends, places, memories that I cherish. But until I sort this out, the only reminders I’ll have will be that I was an ugly person, with beautiful friends, that was occasionally allowed into stunning places.

...is that I look nothing like I think I do. Every single time I see a picture of myself I’m shocked by how hideous I look – I want to cry every time!

My kinder friends assure me that I do actually look better in real life, so I suppose I just need to practice doing the same in photos – finding my best side, aiming for flattering lighting etc.

Having a digital camera should help with practicing, but I can’t face having to see myself the way other people do. It’s a real knock to the confidence, but I suppose I’ll have to grin and bear it.

Otherwise it’s years more of ruining parties and poignant occasions by ducking/running with lightning speed!