miscellaneous thoughts & notes

over last few days. Hope to feel better soon. Also hope to find my bluetooth attachment so I can post more photos!

I was in a woeful mood most of the weekend, due to a bit of unexpected nastiness from a trusted friend. But good can come from bad, and sometimes I need these things to happen to appreciate the things that are good. One off my girlfriends interstate was happy to talk me through it (on the phone at 2am!) I really am lucky to have the support that I have.
On another note, I must post more photos soon. I have a photo challenge goal that I need to add to. Bed first! zz

wonderful and unpleasant at the same time.
So many friends remembered, which really touched me.
I took the day off and went out for lunch and dinner, with a lazy hour at the bookshop in between.

I returned to work today. My manager didn’t bother to utter a word about it. Which makes his generous contribution to the receptionist’s birthday last month even more glaring.

So I just walked out and made my way home. Next time I speak to them it may be to give notice.

I do hope the rain clears up, as I’ve organised friends to get together in the park on the weekend. Wish me luck

ps. thanks again Freedom for remembering

My internet connection is still intermittent. Going to get it looked at. Hope to get back into it in a few days

to the internet at the moment. My home connection is down so I’m using my mobile phone to make this entry. Hopefully I’ll be back online properly soon to do some more updates

I usually consider myself a cheerful and optimistic person, but over the last few days I’ve been engulfed by this feeling of nothingness.
I just don’t know what direction to take in life and feel rather stuck. I need to make changes, need to complete some more of these goals, and most importantly, I need to believe in myself

I had an interesting dream last night. This is probably more deep than what I usually like to share, but I am just in a sharing mood at the moment :)

Often while I’m within the dream I still seem to know that the events are imaginary. However, last night I had one of those dreams that felt very real, and I couldn’t distinguish that it was a dream until I woke up the next morning.

Within this dream I was watching a documentary. I saw someone who looked like me on the screen, in the background. To my surprise, I recognised that it was actually me on that screen. All the surrounding noise was cancelled out, so all that you could hear was the conversation I was having in the background. I remembered watching that person on the screen, knowing it was me, but also having a feeling that I didn’t know this person very well. I don’t remember any of the dialogue, but I remembered thinking as I watched myself on the screen, “With what she revealed just then, I’ve just discovered a different side of her. Whatever she revealed just then has won my unconditional trust and love”.

So I’m going to take that a sign that I’m on the right path :)

I had locked myself out of my Flickr account, but tonight I managed to work out how to get back in :) I’m thinking of adding the pics from my photo goal to my Flickr page

from my calendar of Buddhist quotes, felt like sharing this;

“When you are washing the dishes,
washing the dishes must be the
most important thing in your life.
Just as when you are drinking tea,
drinking tea must be the most
important thing in your life.”
-Thich Nhat Hahn

I want to bring myself into the moment as much as I can, and this quote articulates it perfectly

Magic 8 ball predictions

Here’s what I recommend…
* go scuba diving in the Great Barrier reef
* work for an NGO
* do a cartwheel
* take speed
* try hash
Should I try again?

8 Ball, what sort of influence are you? Not just one,

but 2 drug suggestions? Drugs are terrible for the

complexion!