At the beginning of the year I was finishing up at my job and preparing to interview for a course I wanted to do.
By April I had been accepted into the course and was three months into it. I often considered leaving the course, as it turned out to be highly technical, full of industry jargon that went over my head, and the teaching style was mainly tough and critical. I had not had an income apart from a few hours of casual work here and there, and many times I thought, “what situation have I put myself in?” But my classmates were really nice and supportive, and it just felt right to keep going, even though I couldn’t think of why. Also, the few places that I did casual work did provide me with the variety I had been lacking for so long. I also discovered I was quite good at making my funds go a long way and didn’t need to keep buying clothes or other expensive impulse buys.
By the end of June I had found a new job, just in the nick of time. I constantly had to reach into my pocket for school expenses and day to day living. I had stayed at my course and was halfway through the first year. I continued to have learning setbacks, and also some minor successes. I had found myself missing a lot of social events with friends so I could isolate myself and get my back to back assignments done on time.
By the end of September I had another birthday but was too busy to acknowledge it. A fortnight later I gathered up a large group of friends to celebrate. It had been so long since I’d seen some of them, that a few of them had walked straight past me, not recognising me as my hair colour had changed since I’d last seen them! I had been in my new job for a couple of months and trying to juggle learning the processes of my new job and and night school workload. I had also noticed that several people close in my life were suddenly not around. I had a dear friend move to the US, a best friend moved to the other side of the country, and several classmates had their various reasons for leaving the course.
By end of November I was finishing up my course for the year, found a new closeness with my classmates, and I could see all the hard work and perseverence was worthwhile. Although my skills aren’t where I want them to be, my mind has expanded to a point where I think I have learned more in the last 12 months than the last 5 years combined. I have also found my colleagues and work to be a great fit for my skills, and it is wonderful to work for a company that is inclusive and where I can see the results of my efforts making a difference.
Now it is mid December, and I have just reached the 6 month mark with my job. I’ve had a lot of really positive feedback, and it’s great to be in such an environment. My role will give me new experiences next year, and I’m excited to know that I have opportunity for more growth. I’m looking forward to resuming my studies, but also thankful for the festive season break :)The last 3 weeks I’ve been to quite a few social events and almost caught up on everything I missed earlier in the year!
If I could change anything in hindsight, maybe I would have had more fun and not take the year so seriously. But ultimately I’m proud of the way I treated this year. Dedicating time in growing my skills and knowledge is the best investment I could make for myself. I also feel that this year has been all about listening to my instinct, whether or not I understand why.
It’s powerful to know that my instincts are there to guide me and all I need to do is walk through the doors that my inner voice tells me to… :) With the foundations I’ve set this year, next year something tells me I’m really going to fly!
PS. Congrats to everyone on this goal, may you all have continued success with it :)