Lose 30 pounds

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No success.

I just haven’t managed to stay focussed on this. Things are so busy and its impossible to eat healthy, drink water, & get moving when I’ve got these enormous frucking piles of tasks in front of me.

I’m so overwhelmed!!

I just need to vent; don’t worry. I’ll get back on the horse next week. And when that horse is wheezing because I weigh 219 lbs I’ll look into his sad eyes and set a new date for my goal: summer holidays at the cabin under 200 lbs.

Well I probably will miss my initial goal but I’m determined to see how close I can get. Despite some negative feedback to the contrary, I am trying not to see myself as a failure if I keep getting back up & dusting myself off. I just need to apply more effort – THAT is the success for me.

So yesterday I had one of my best friends over & we chose a recipe from the weight watchers cookbook; we walked to the store to get the groceries (2.7k roundtrip) and cooked a GREAT healthy dinner together. We did succumb to the cursed tray of brownies in the fridge but here’s what: THAT’S OKAY. As long as the other 90% of the time I am creating healthier habits then I am 90% better off than I was before. Who said I had to be 100% healthy all the time. Besides, I really neeeeeeeded the chocolate if you know what I mean.

Weight is a bit up this week (221 yesterday?) but I’m hydrating and portioning so I’ll restore it shortly. No worries there. Now, back to work because the clients are lining up (yay!).

Well I’ve cracked the 220’s. About freakin’ time.
I’m going to borrow motivation from this since I’ve done very little about this in the past weeks (see prev. post).

So, I will NOT go back up into the 220s. And I will get to 200 or less in time for my vacation – in 47 days.

19 pounds in 47 days. Hmmm… sounds like I’ve left things too late but I can try. I can make the effort and see what I achieve.

My success will be the effort, not the result. The effort will create the habit and the actions that should carry me forward on a healthier path.

If I keep typing all this stuff that I KNOW intellectually, will I believe it and act on it?

Anyone want to be reciprocally accountable with me? LOL I will weigh in at least every 3 days on 43T and tell you all how I’m doing.

I promise, for myself.
Go team….

I suck.

I got all enthusiastic… again… and thought that 43t would lend some accountability to this goal. But no.

Now I’ve done nothing about it for weeks (insert excuses here: sick, away, birthday, blah blah) but it comes down to the fact that I don’t realize how to overcome my own obstacles. They are more powerful than my desires to reach my goals.

I suppose they don’t have to be but… HOW?!

Meh.

So the treadmill and I engaged for 30 minutes first thing this morning. Good times. Today I switched up the 1994 dance hits for the Dr. Feelgood & Appetite for Destruction albums. Hehehe.. I am a diverse individual, that’s for sure. Hmmm… just thought of something to add to my other goal.

Anyway, it’s been a crappy week & I haven’t done well. But it’s getting critical. I don’t have any days to waste. I MUST work harder and focus on this. I have 22 more pounds to lose.

Water, water and more water. I’ve been falling off the water bandwagon.

And for heaven’s sake, stop eating after 8pm. I don’t NEED to eat that late. What? Am I going to starve? Hardly!!

{Mental slap upside the head.}
Get with the program sister! C’mon! You can DO IT!

So no progress over 2+ weeks. But, no gain either which is amazing since I had a cold (Is it “feed a fever, starve a cold” or the other way around? I always forget.) and ate everything crappy in sight.

Decaf, non-fat, sugar free vanilla latte today was my one “indulgence”. I say indulgence because I was trying to reduce the purchasing of fancy coffees… they’re expensive! But can’t be too hard on myself ‘cause I WANTED to have a whole milk caramel macchiato… but I didn’t!

Back on the wheel of death (aka treadmill) tomorrow. No excuses, just do it.

“The Right Hon. was a tubby little chap who looked as if he had been poured into his clothes and had forgotten to say ‘When!’”~P.G. Wodehouse, Very Good Jeeves, 1930.

Sweet genius!
Why do you always get stuck at a round number… it’s like, if I could just lose even 1/2 a pound I’d been in the ‘teens’ instead of the ‘twenties’ but no! LOL

Oh well, more water and good food today.

Yesterday I invented this for lunch: whole grain toast with skim cottage cheese and sliced tomato on top, sprinkled with fresh ground pepper and a quick spritz of italian dressing. Wow – it was pretty good :)

(Of course I had greek food for dinner… mmmm. But it was a friend’s 50th bday party. You have to live a little! I just avoided most of the potatoes & rice and ate all my salad and lamb souvlakia. MMMMMMM. What a treat!)

Good wishes to everyone on this goal today!

Okay, I’m down 6.5 lbs (out of 30) since January 18th. Mostly water, the pace is slowing down so it’s time to take it seriously.

Do I want to get those 6 and a half blocks of butter back? NO!

So this morning, 20 minutes pilates workout, 22 minutes on the treadmill to the ‘90 Dance Mix (covered 3.46 km in 22 minutes!) and a litre of water down so far. Slimfast bar for breakfast was a compromise; it doesn’t meet my “non-refined” diet but was a better balanced choice than anything else I had on hand.

I’ve add the “DARE” factor to this goal because I want to be under 200 lbs before my May vacation. It’s a lofty goal but I’ll work hard and see how close I get. Bonus points for effort of course!

Love thyself or eat chips (and love thigh-self).

Last night we hit the BNL concert in Vancouver and I knew we’d be going out with friends so I waited for nearly 2 weeks to appease my burger craving. It was so intense!

Anyway, the burger ended up being really shitty so I didn’t even get that great hamburger taste. Not sure if that is good (since I’m not craving it at all now) or bad (since I missed out!) but I’m just letting it go.

I ate some of the fries and all my salad and had decaf coffee with. All in all, not a great dinner but it was once and I’m okay with it.

I think 90% compliance to a diet is good enough – I mean, if it’s too militant I think I’m just setting myself up to fail. What do you guys think? Am I rationalizing this too much?

By the way, the Ladies ROCKED last night, oh yeah!