Joyfully Pray For Myself And Others

1. Alpha folks searching for answers….
2. the dilemma of when to have kids…
3. job opportunities…
4. z’s mom…
5. grandma’s radiation treatments…
6. peace of mind…

-found community where I was least expecting it.
-saw the heart of people that I judged on the outside, but through their honesty with eachother and the Lord came to feel affinity and love for them in mere seconds.
-it felt great to be moved to tears by the Glory of God, the power and majesty of His work in ordinary people, to be invited into caring for them, lifting up broken hearts, failing marriages, raw and sore emotions. To BE COMMUNITY.
-just. such. a blessing.

and it’s starting to freak me out.
stop stop stop
GO TO BED.
NOW.

last night was able to joyfully lay back in a comfy chair during the performance and to pray for God’s Spirit to be present, to be active, to be working through Mark’s hands, to be creating something beautiful and different and God Breathed. it was very peaceful and rewarding. God was present. I was aware of Him. I am so thankful.

i know that God “knows the groanings of my heart” which is cool… yaaaa, but, i feel inadequate, i feel tongue-tied, i feel feeble not knowing what to say on the situation of my sister... i am not comfortable not having an answer!

please, i need prayer for the words – REAL WORDS not trite, overused, overly-obvious phrases of “everything will work out in the end”. i need to pray with INTENTION and i need to rest and WAIT. and then to pray again and rest and wait. and TALK with the Creator Of The Universe (as my friend likes to say) and maybe then, i will have some peace about the crappiness of this world.

Lord, please make me an instrument for change in this world. please give me the strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other.