take care of my hubby

Now he is working full time and for the 1st time in my life I am a stay-at-home mom (little one still baking).

I have been getting up with him each morning and packing up a lunch for him to take in his green bag (always the green bag; he is a man of routine). I have been trying to unpack our boxes, but these are not disappearing as fast as he’d wish. I have been trying to figure out how to sort and organize and store all of our things in this new house…. but the solution evades me still.

Well, at least he has a lunch!
ha ha

Have been spending quiet nights at home (together).
Have been eating in (together).
Have been googling recipes online and cooking new stuff (together).
Have been toasting ‘another meal well-prepared’ with a nightly selection of wine (together).
Have been giggling at the laugh tracks of the M.A.S.H 007 and the dramatics of Captain Kirk (together).

encouraged him to take the time to fly home early for his aunt’s funeral. it cost $350+ dollars extra, but i know it was the right thing to do. i’m glad that i pushed him to make the phone call and get the details sorted out.

I think I made an impression : )
Received lots of thank yous from my hubby and houseguests for home cooked meals, tidy beds, a clean house, working “the door” at the show, grocery shopping, anticipating needs, etc… Lots of work, but it sure made for a welcome place to spend a couple of days with friends (big friends in a little house).

I didn’t argue with my hubby, and most especially didn’t bark or criticize him in front of others. We were most harmonious ; ) which is something that I really want to work on more and more.

...Oh, if I had more control over my tongue MORE often….

Argued lots with my hubby today.
We are stressed out about his laptop failure, which is jeopardizing the tour… eiyeiyeiiiiiiiiiiii
We have no place to sleep tomorrow.
No flight to Nijmegen, Netherlands, where we are supposed to be performing Friday.
We DO have each other, and our health, and are surrounded by folks who love and support us, and are intelligent, wealthy, on the positive side of good looking, have no dependents except our dog who everyone loves and would adopt anyways, have no debt, have travel insurance, have contacts in four European cities, have a VISA… if only we had an American Express card and they could solve our problems just like in the commercials.

So… I need to work on being less touchy, pretend to be happy and say over and over “It’ll all work out” so that he really believes it. If he were dealing with this on his own, he’d probably deal with it better than he is with me by his side… it’s strange, but the fact that we are each worrying about the other is causing us to be even MORE strung out.

Gotta pray Gotta pray. Need to stop trying to ‘fix things’ on my own and hand it into bigger hands… (some would say miracle glowing hands)

and they are charming.
I’d love this man, even if I’d never met him!

i didn’t sleep last night (and that really annoys him), i did get things done that i promised to do…. so, maybe that balances out? we’ll see based on how cranky and tired i get today ; )

and fun with a friend visiting from the promised land… steak, mushrooms with red wine sauce, potats and carrots on the barby, a specialty beer store that took a long time to find, but was SO worth it in the end, and now… they have gone dancing… who knows where…

i’ll say a prayer that he doesn’t get jumped, or puke.

i feel like i should be whispering…
almost as if someone had died…
his album, his piece of artwork that he has been working on for a year, is kaput, is fini, is no more, as of today… because suddenly five days before the final mastering deadline… something happened and the settings changed all of the songs.
i’m not one to believe in coincidences, so… either satan is throwing up road-blocks to see how resilient he is, or God knows best and is taking things into his own hands… hmmm… really was focusing a lot on this… maybe too much? is he teaching us that there are other things WAAAAAY more important than a mastering deadline? is he asking us to trust him and to give it over to him? it’s ironic that’s all… a year’s worth of stuff wiped out 5 days before the final deadline… definitely NOT a coincidence.

LORD, take our eyes off of ourselves and place them on the things that YOU really care about. Help us to not be selfish and self-centered. Help us to deal with disappointment. Help us to deal with confusion. Help us to move forward and not yearn for the past. Help us to not worry about the future because today has enough cares of its own.