get out of my comfort zone

I haven’t had a day off for 2 weeks and only one day off in the last 4 weeks. I won’t have a day off until I quit my current job, which will happen as soon as my new employer makes me an acceptable offer for me to go work there full time.

How’s that for getting out of my confort zone? I want my life to get better eventually, so I’m willing to pay the price, to make the needed sacrifices, to help myself. Working hard is one of them. I was lazy before, that’s why I have so many debts. I can’t be lazy anymore.

This goal is somewhat blurry to me, or it was. I always viewed it as a challenge to challenge myself, but it was never something precise, rather a goal to do more (but more what?)...

But as I’m getting more and more clear on what is wrong in my life, I’m also finding that the way of correcting the issues I have is to change the thing that brings the more security to me, my job.

Changing jobs is stressful, it’s scary. I’ve got a super-easy job paying near 30k a year, but it has no challenge at all and I won’t have any kind of promotion here. The best I can hope for is a annual raise, which is a lot less than I’m capable of.

I didn’t know it a couple of years back, but I’m a fighter, I’m the guy who wants more, better, who’s willing to go to the front to take the hits if it means getting things done, gettings things right. My current job is the opposite. I sit at a desk most of the times, often alone in a store that is getting closer and closer to bankrupcy. I watch movies I download from the Internet, I come here, I read stuff on Wiki… Not at all challenging.

Getting out of my confort zone has become getting out of my job. At my new job (part time, but soon to be full time), I have to be active, I have to do all sorts of things, always standing, always challenged. It’s not my dream job, but it’s better, it’s good for my evolution. I’m still afraid of committing by quitting my easy 40 hours paid for 33 hours worked job at a better salary for this 40 hours paid of 40 hours hard-worked job that pays less, but that will get me to the manager job within a few years. Not knowing all the facts, it could seem foolish to do this change, but I know I’ve got to, even though I just started to pay a new debt of 2000$ and my GF is late…

I do hope she’s late for THE reason however, not just a false “alarm”...

I’ve got to do this change. But not hasting anything. I have set a date for my resignation. I’ll not be working at my current full-time job in 6 weeks.

And the new job will bring all sorts of other changes, since I’ll be working with young people full of life, it’ll energize me and help me get on with other projects, like getting in shape and stay a child at heart.

It’s easy to be in the comfort zone, but you don’t learn as much as when confronted to new situations. I think I should get more out there and meet new people, visit new places, try new things… Easier said than done.