oral sex

I give and I give and I give, but I hardly ever get.
He wants it and gets it all the time, I’ve recieved probably 2 or 3 times. I really like giving it, but I’d like something in return every now and then you know? But then when I think about it I start to feel insecure, like maybe he doesn’t like because I smell or taste funny or what ever… so then I decided I don’t want it… and then I feel like I’m being used.