Find a Religion

I was raised a Christian other and my whole family practically are still practising i went mad and left it and discovered clubs and boys and alcohol and lets say that wasnt precisely fulfilling either and i would like to return to it cos i do believe it and everything and im tired of hearing how im gonna die and never see anyone again lol and my mothers face everytime i visit because i now live with Shock Horror a man who is 1.not yet my husband and 2. not part of ‘my’ religion even im not part of my religion! It gets old quick but frankly i feel im too lazy to be able to do religion seriosuly i mean its hard work and has to be number 1 priority. U have to be ready to change your life 100% i believe to do it properly