To live instead of exist

I’ve been suffering on and off with anxiety for the past four years now. It’s my 24th birthday today and I want to start living properly again cos life used to be so fun! It’s going to start slowly at first with me getting a bit of help to deal with my problems (already started this just over a week ago). I’ve wasted some time but better now than leave it another 4 years – or my whole life? – and just go on existing and not really getting anywhere

I think a lot of this goal for me can be summed up in the sentence “live to work, don’t work to live” and this is what I intend to do, although it still doesn’t cover it all. I want to get rid of my fears and do enjoyable stuff like seeing beautiful parts of the world, spend time with loved ones (and not just time which is a few hours here and there recovering from work…the odd holiday if you’re lucky). I want to live life to its fullest because we probably only get one shot at it, I just need a plan…