take more risks

Ok, so today I took a proper risk! Seeing as my boyfriend of 5.5yrs has just moved out etc. and we’re finished, I’m feeling better about it and wanting to have sex, I reckon. So today I gave a casual invitation to this guy that I like for him to come round if he fancied. Sadly he was not feeling too good but still, I asked!

I cut myself off from everyone earlier this year when my panic and anxiety came back. My boyfriend’s now left me :( and I’m not sure if he’s coming back but I’m trying my best to get back to my normal self because I know that will help! Today I found out that his friend who I also know from going round his house/him coming here (who said to me to contact him any time to talk) had the afternoon off work, so I decided to go round and see him. It was good! We didn’t chat about “him” the whole time, just now and again. I’m glad I took a chance because I could have sat on the PC all afternoon accomplishing nothing.

It might not sound like a risk to a “normal” person but for me it’s a big step socialising again, no matter how low level.