take a deep breath (it'll be ok)

The most memorably “deep breath” moment for me was… well it was more of gasping not so much a calm intake of air…when my friend told me she was cutting her self because of me. I didn’t know I could do this so someone. Hurt them. And if you knew her, and could look into her eyes, you would want to die as I wanted to at that moment. I think I still want to, just a little, but we all do at times. I still haven’t forgiven myself for what I have done to her. The thing is I don’t know what it was that I did. She never told me, and I only have speculations. She’s forgiven me. I don’t know why. “close your eyes. take a breath. make a wish. count to three. 1. 2. 3…”