Be less shy

This is getting hard.
I’m putting myself out there. I’m trying. But it seems like people just don’t want anything to do with me. I constantly keep getting ignored besides my efforts. It makes me think that maybe something is wrong with me. Am I not attractive enough? Is that it? Do I smell? Am I stupid?
Why don’t people want to talk to me?
Grrr.

I’m really happy with myself. I’m just putting myself out there.
making small talk with strangers.
doing stuff for myself.
I even got a job!

because really no one is going to eat me.

nothing really has changed. I have to try harder and I have to put myself out there. No matter what.

Some people say that there is nothing wrong with being shy.
and i guess they are right to an extent. There is nothing wrong with being shy until it gets to the point where it really gets in the way of your like. Interrupts in way?...that’s not the word i’m looking for but it’s the general idea.
I have terrible shyness. It’s so bad that I can’t even talk on the phone. Especially if it someone i don’t know. I can’t make doctor appointments. I can’t call to see what happened to that thing or whatever. I can’t even talk to my grandmother. I just freak out. There is this like anxiety that forms inside. I can’t go to Mcdonalds and order what i want because i’m too shy to talk to the person who is taking orders. I can’t make new friends. And the ones I do have, are by…i guess you can say luck.
I think maybe alot of this comes from being made of when i was younger. I have sorta of a very kid-ish voice and very one use to make fun of me. Even now sometimes. I’m 18 but i sound like i’m 10. or maybe even younger.
I don’t know i sometimes think that there is something wrong with me. Maybe i need psychiatric help.