gain more confidence

I can’t stand the fact that I can’t stand myself. I can’t even go outside in public without feeling extremely uncomfortable. I don’t want to talk to people because I’m afraid they’ll judge me or make fun of me. I’m so anti-social and don’t have any friends because I don’t want anybody to see me… I’m afraid that if I do make friends that I’ll end up lying to them just so that they’ll like me. I just don’t know how to change this. =/ I was homeschooled for over 7 years and never really had a lot of contact with people after that. I’ve even been having anxiety attacks lately… I feel like a complete freak. Ugh!!!