beat depression

I am doing badly once again.

It may not be entirely wise to depend on the CBT sessions to cure me, because these things just aren’t that reliable.

I had a month off from the depression… I just wish I’d felt happy in that time, but I haven’t. It’s a disappointment.

I have CBT in December. They’re insistent people…

“Are you sure you’re coming?”
“Send us a written confirmation”
“Please confirm that you will be able to attend”
“You must turn up to your appointments”
“Are you absolutely positive you’re free?”
etc.

The last psychiatrist I went to got ill after seeing me. Well… he cancelled my second appointment on those grounds. Wasn’t a huge loss, except for the money that went out of my insurance. So, now it’s back to the good old NHS.

So now I have a CBT therapy planned, which will probably involve me talking to a computer programme. Really sounds like one step worse than what I spend most of my day doing anyway. I can’t bloody wait.

The good news, however, is the counselling that I can go on in the space of the 18 months I spend on the waiting list. The counsellor is ‘very approachable’ according to my GP, who is himself very approachable. I’m raring to go… if only they’d mail me.