remain celibate until marriage

Maybe it is because I am female. Don’t get me wrong, I do have the urge to dry hump some of the effing hot people I see on a regular basis. I’m able to control myself by reminding my expectations of reciprocity. I do not want to give my body to someone that doesn’t give a fuck about my mind or soul and could care less about what happens to me after he gets off. I know it is a billion to one odds, but I’m willing to use my lifetime to take the chance that I’ll find him. The man that lights up my life and is worth surrending my total self only to him.