Fall in love

THERE IS NO CHANCE FOR COURRY AND I!!!!

Now that he is in my life, I am starting to feel all these different things. Some I’ve never felt, so are familiar. I don’t know if its because its him or…what. The question is, should I fall in love with him? Lord knows he has played with me in the past but that was 6 years ago. We have both matured and I can tell just by talking to him that he is a little different. Maybe he is or he just has some hella game :) Nevertheless, Im loving it…

We will see…

Just about given up…

I’ve been seeing someone and I think he is special. His name is Randy. He’s 2 years younger than me. We went to the same high school together. I remember him. Always quiet and appeared to be cool. He had a girlfriend back then. And I could tell he was really into her. They were always together.

We’ve been chatting on a regular basis for about a month and a half and I believe this week we made it offical. He’s so nice to me. So…”man-like”. He seems to care about my well being…asks if I’ve eaten, takes my trash out with me asking him to. He fixed a few things around my condo that he saw needee attention, again, without prompting =).

The fact that he’s handy isn’t the only reason I like him. He is so laid back. Doesn’t seem to be stressful at all. And most of all, he’s patient and understanding. I am soooo enjoying him!! I believe that he has the potential to be the man that makes me fall in love.

That God will put that one in my life. I get tired of being lonely, but I’d much rather invest my time and heart into something real…when it comes around…I will know. Until then, I’m “chillin” and doing me!

fall in love with the wrong ones…

That is a question that I ask myself often. I don’t know if I have been looking in the wrong places or what. I don’t know if I attrack the wrong types of people. I just DON’T KNOW.

I’ve been in love before…at least I think I have. I’m 26 yrs young (whoa) and I have dated some dudes that I felt I loved. But where in hell are they now?

I do know I am addicted to LUST. There is no love in lust. At least I don’t think so. Why does this have to be so complicated? How come I can’t find what Clair found in Cliff? Maybe because there love was fictional. And perhaps that is why I haven’t found love. True love.

I just want to know if I am capable? Of course I am…I love my daughter. But I am looking…no I am not looking. I am waiting for the Lord to bless me with someone who loves me and in turn, I will love him.