This one links into the wanting to lose weight ‘thing’.
I’ve only ever had 2 serious relationships, and I’ve never been the girl who gets approached when she’s out and complimented or whatever..
My last boyfriend showered me with compliments, lovely guy and all, but I don’t think I hear compliments anymore. I consider them insincere and false, because there’s no way what I see in the mirror can correspond with them.
All I see are faults, especially since I put on so much weight. I won’t go too drastically into the self pity cycle and start listing all of my faults, waste of my time and yours.
Anyway, the only thing to do here is get to the stage where I can face that mirror and finally feel acceptable again. So weight loss and a new wardrobe methinks… I’m actually quite ok with my hair, but maybe a new haircut in the end too, just to cement the new me :)