love myself

13. I’m honest
I realize I’ve becomme more and moree honest, both with myself and others. I find it much easier to say what I think and what I want and ask people the same instead of guessing. Guessing leads to misunderstandings, and I like as little of them as possible. I guess I can be too honest sometimes, but that’s better than being a liar and hypocrite.

14. I can always find something to do
Since I was little I’ve always had the ability to find stuff to do. I always have a thousands of projects going on at the same time. I read a book, do crosswords, play guitar or whatever I feel like if I got too much time left. I can never remeber myself saying – I’m bored, entertain me!

15. I am beautiful
Yes I am, in fact everyone is, and i mean this in a very superficial way. I feel now that I can look myself in the mirror and feel content about the refliection, I didn’t use too, yet I haven’t changed. It’s like they say, It’s in the head. Everything and everyone has it’s beauty, the problem is that not everyone can see that.

I realize that the more goals I accomplish, the more I impress myself, respect myself and love myself. The fact that I’m not something constant, that I continue to change and grow every day, is pleasing.

I guess that my strategy on this goal is proving to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to by crossing off goal after goal on my list. Damn, I’m gonna’ prove my self-critical side wrong! ;D

11. I’m creative
I was a child with endless imagination and I haven’t let that part of me die. Music, art, ideas, that’s what makes me tick.

12. I create an opinion
I’m not indifferent, I try to be updated in the news and love discussing politics and ideas. I like to know where I stand and to be able to explain why. Knowledge is power.

8. I can crack a witty joke from time to time

9. I am not self-centred

10. I am capable of loving someone

I’ve decided to start a list on things that I love about myself. It’s hard and scary but hopefully it will help me to focus on my good traits and it’s something useful to read when your confidence is low.

1. I am trustworthy
My friends always comes to me when they need someone to talk to. Gosh, even people who I’m not that close to trusts me with their fears and problems. I guess it is because:

2. I am a good listener

3. I seldom gossip

4. I can feel empathy

5. I try not to judge

6. I give pretty good advice
At least I havn’t failed completely this far..

7. I’m always there

Sometime I feel like a psychologist, in a good way, and my friends has occasionally called me one as well.

Wow, I actually came up with a lot of things once I got started :)

At work I don’t wear make-up, and I realize that I have become quite comfortable that way. In a strange way I feel prettier, on the inside, like I am showing my real self.

I got a lot of compliments today, mostly from elderly suffering from dementia, but who cares! It was about my looks – I had beautiful teeth, my clothes looked great because of my fine figure and I had a face like a pretty doll. (And this was a day when I had no make up and wore my worst old clothes).

On top of this I also got appreciated by colleagues for doing a great job. I smiled the rest of the day :) Loving myself suddenly became easier.

I have changed dramatically this year and I can still feel that it hasn’t stopped. I believe it’s called “growing up”. The worst part is that it took me some hard lessons and happenings to get me here.

You know when you’re watching one of those tv-shows and think “yea, like that would happen in reality”, I have realized that it do happen, startlingly close, if not within, your own life. And this show has no re-runs. It is live and it scares me.

Perhaps that is the reason why I have begun to take action. And it is that new let’s-do-something-about-it part of me that has made me respect and love myself more.

If you have a good heart and act by it, there can’t be any reason to hate yourself. Just try your best to make the right thing. Just wish it could be as easy as it sounds.

My looks are average, I am healthy and that is how much I care. My struggle is not about loving my outside, it is acceptable and it is nothing I spend much time worrying about.

My real trouble is the inside. I am constantly criticizing my own personality. I am not pleased with it at all. I am so insecure. I have no idea why. I can never feel secure in a relationship constantly questioning how anyone could love me which makes me afraid of being rejected, every day. This is why I have trouble letting people in. My heart can’t handle that much worrying. I just want to find security in myself.