stop being so angry

Nothing in my life has changed, except me.
I read this book, by Thich Nhat Hanh, called “Anger, wisdom for cooling the flames”.
Actually suggested to me by an old friend. It helped me realize and focus on where my anger is coming from, that it’s not my fault, nor other peoples. It looks as anger as a suffering, people making us suffer, we make others suffer also. It basically taught me how to deal with it. Whether it was expressing it, breathing, or holding it in for a later talk. Back track to where the anger is rooted.
This might not be the book for you… but it helped me a great deal.

I haven’t had an out of control moodswing in 24 hours.. I can feel the anger silently sitting in the back.. doing a crossword puzzle.. but it’s not far.. juno?

I’m angry a lot of the time.. if it’s not at the people around me, the people in my life, the bugs that run in my blood, or the twitcheS.. than I’m angry at myself. If there is anything exsistant that is in my life, I’m angry at it.

I’d punch it in the face if I could.. but I can’t.. sometimes when it gets really bad, I punch myself.. or hit my head against walls.. finally for about 3 minutes it stops.

the hardest part for me I think, is that no one knows I’m angry.
To me, absolute solitude is when there is a party going on inside me, and everyone around me is watching tv.
It’s like multing lava inside my torso. One of these days, I threaten myself.. One of these days I’m going to have an outburst… and regret not dealing with the “now” then.
It’s frustrating, knowing how it feels to be happy, and “easy going”.. but walking this life on an edge of hostility. I don’t want to hurt anyone, but sometimes I get really close to saying things that aren’t takebackable, or doing things that will make me feel really bad.
What to do? What to do?