make more eye contact

Like some kind of mental block or something. I can’t look at people in the eye for but a second :(

I am getting a little better at this.. with some people anyway :) It’s enjoyable to do with someone you love!

so I talked about this subject with a friend (in an e-mail) and she told me not to pressure myself.. so I am just trying to relax and enjoy my convorsation. I still want to look at people in the eye more because I kind of feel like I am missing out on something.. but trying not to pressure myself either.

There is something I have noticed about myself, maybe I should work on it, maybe it don’t matter, but here it is.. I have gotten better at making eye contact with people I don’t know.. (such as when I order food, or walk by someone to say hi, the sign of peace, etc) but, to people I actually do know… (family and stuff). I am terrible at eye contact.. I think a lot of it is I feel I am known for this.. and don’t want people to think “What got into him?” or something like that .. they probably wouldn’t think that.. but I wonder if its even worth the effort to practice… Not that I am not that great at it to begin with.. just a little more comfortable with it with strangers.. any thoughts?

two things..

1. I always worry that people think I am starring.. like if I accidently make eye contact with someone at a distance..

2. I am more comfortable with eye contact with the opposite sex.. (no matter whom)

are these things normal?

I rarely look at people in the eye when I talk to them, I think Im missing out on something.. maybe the challenge can become fun