Suck it up and Deal

my entries, I see that a lot of my sucking it up has to do with weather. TOday is no Exception.
this morning about 11 I am tooling away to the gym and I note the Huge black storm clouds rolling in . So I decide to go shopping for milk, have lunch, etc and to go to the gym when the storm has passed..So at 2 pm I leave the house again, the sun is shining, its hot…and just as I am halfway through my strength session, the sky just opens up and POURS. No pool for me today, I have not been in the pool all week.
Maybe tomorro….maybe.

was a primo suck it up day. I got a patient who was in complete heart block, but none of hte paramedics had noted it. I do wonder how they could have missed that the dude had a heart rate of like, say 10. 10 is not good.
We floated in a wire into his heart to act as a temporary pacer. The last time I did this was probably 3-5 years ago. Maybe longer.
As we got the pacer in…I noted signs of DIC, diffuse bleeding from a variety of sites. Super hard to take care of and very difficult, of course, more so for the patient and family…I hope he recovers well…definitely a suck it up and feel worried for hours day.

Its SNOWING. Yesterday it was 70 degrees. This just totally sucks.

again. Why will this bug/germ fest never end!!! Feeling oretty lousy. will not be able to run canyonlands, since this is yet another week or solost to training, Ah but the future could be bright.

to have woken up on the wrong side of the bed today. Didn’t help that my landlord calledme at-6:50 am to discuss heaters. I then was mean to housing people who housed me in this dump, and it has carried on through out the day. I dont want to eat, all I want to do is be annoyed. Will Spring and Warm weather PLease Please come. Learning that cold and I do not get a long. Added anxiety about other things on top of it. Did manage to send out Birthday gifts… but well, Meh I feel rotten.

A day or so ago at work. Critical patient arrived, Other nurse is in the room. I do a few things that I am involved with, and then go in and see if I can’t start another IV as the one that the paramedics started had infiltrated. The other nurse leaves, never to return, leaving me alone with the critically ill man (who did not survive 24 hours later).
Totally abnormal behavior on the part of the other nurse,irresponsible and extremely agitating/angering to me. The Head Nurse of the whole hosptial told me later she thought I was shafted, and that made it a little better, but for now, i am very leery of working with that man again. though I have to for 8 more weeks….

its really pretty but it appears to be canceling my race tomorro night, so that rather gets me annoyed…
I still have to run in it, but not sure they will let the race go on….

This is such a spoiled brat thing. I have to live in an apartment in Wilmington NC for my next contract, 30 miles from the actual hospital, making it 30 miles from the beach. And in a college town, in an apartment complex that is affordable to students. Dear students I love you all, but I do not want to live with you because I am no longer a student and I have no love of noise/booze/etc….
I soooo wanted the little cottage on the beach. But no, I have a third floor apartment. :( I think this is a prime suck it up moment. or perhaps the other goal would be to “Get over it”

suck it up and deal person. No decent housing…
Looked today at an Apartment, its nice, but not really ready.
I do wish they would just not do the floors and let me move right in.
today I get to work with the woman who essentially screwed my housing up. Should hit on a few goals. This one and the judge a little less and forgive a little more.
Grrrr. sometimes I want a different goal!!

Lots this week to suck up. My work is a mess, I have no idea if I am going to get the new job or not….My social life is a mess, and it’s my fault for expecting better things.
I keep telling myself in just 2 weeks things will be different…
I just wonder which way different. Because if it gets much worse I’ll be all sucked out.