Find balance.

I ran alot more than I have in a long time. I have to say, I felt way more balanced than I have in a long time.
Yay.

i feel distinctly unbalanced again.
I’m doing a lot of work…a lot of driving, and a lot of visiting Physicians. None of this is what I want to be doing. I want time to settle the house, play with the dog and I want to be running, instead of seeing Dr smarty pants.
I do need to do a little Over time here and there to try to make sure that I’m saving money properly, and able to pay the mortgage. I also need to continue with the docs for my leg, and the driving is getting me to work and the doc.
I have a feeling this is going to change at some point soon however….its a good feeling.

Feeling a bit unbalanced today, I think it’s because I know in less than 15 days i need to move, and to me its a little stressful. The moving itself isn’t bad, whats annoying is getting 2-3 good people organized with big vehicles to assist me. I’m looking forward to settling into my new place, but I’m worried about the closing and getting there.
and also worried about my lose ten pounds goal and my dog, and well, things seem sort of out of kilter. I think if I just hang on, it will all right itself…
right?

very Zen at the moment.

I’ve got an offer out on the house, and am so scared that I’ll somehow run out of cash…
(must work some Overtime this week (4-6 hours)
I’m not liking the way work assignments are going, but I’m also not sure I want to address it.

I’m not bouncing back from Injury very quickly…as my “long run” hasn’t even hit 5 miles yet….

And I have not been out on a decent date in a while…though that could change…
Grrrrr.
I want more balance in my life, but I am not sure I know how, or if I have the energy to get it….

balanced, I need to make time for my social life to occur. I am doing well on my other balance, exersise, work, study, and rest…
I just need to add in a few “outings” and then This goal, and the “be more social goal” can be marked off!

image is Debra Van Auten.

I feel more balanced, but a bit deflated. Odd men in my life, being unable to run productively, and such tend to make me feel a little deflated.

But…its a balanced deflation!!!!!!!

for Wednesday.

Work out with Chad.
DO a normal work out as well. remember to stretch.

spend time at the coffee shop studying for CEN.

Mop floor.

laundry.

Take dog either to dog park or on a really really long walk.

read some.

watch “Project Runway” on TV.
sleep….

EDITED to say I did everything, except mop the floor. I swept the floor, so thats a start.

on this, work balance, exersise balance, spend time with dog balance, spend time with friends balance, flirt with all the wrong people balance.

Now, all seems to be crashing all over the place.
Been working too much, not flirting enough, being jealous instead, seeing no one, being irritated by the dog and finding myself too tired for the gym….

This needs to change! So tomorro, I am back in the gym and I am back “ON” some sort of normal eating pattern.

I keep wondering, What Happened!