This goal is the definition of what I’ve had to explain to my boss for the past couple days of why I seem “unfocused”. I’m in a job where I don’t see my purpose and though this has happened before and they faithfully met me half way and gave me a new position it still is not satisfying. To me I need to like what I do and where I am now I currently hate it. You may say hate is a strong word but that’s the word that of lately I’ve found myself using. It’s not about the money (in general) for me. For me I feel as though there’s sooo much I’d like to accomplish in my lifetime for me to be sitting doing something I don’t want to do. It’s like you have a list to accomplish but you’re spending time on something that’s not even on your list.
Everyday it’s a task and a burden for me to go to work. I reach late because I don’t want to go, and it has been seen by others as well. I want to feel as though I’m contributing to the place where I work and likewise it’s contributing to me but not just financially. Some people can’t see it and maybe I’m just different but to me I need more than finance out of my job. It’s not about the environment nor the people because both are very good presently but my underlining concern is whether it will take me to where I want to be later, will I gain more knowledge in something that I can carry on, am I able to grow where I am??? All these things are now contributing to my decision of whether to leave or not.
I have been given some time off and then I’m suppose to come back with a decision. So with a week off and this goal still to be marked as done and worth-doing... is my current position gonna allow me to…’work because I like to and not because I have to’? ... is what I need to have in my mind for the next coming weeks.
