I recently won a promotion at work, which has been a big confidence booster for me.
Around 1000 people applied and 200 were selected for interview. In the end around 80 positions were offered. I was ranked in the top 20, which means. I got the job! As I work for a big department, it also means that I will get my first preference.
I feel kind of proud of myself.
I am still the same anxious, nervous person I have always been. I don’t know why I have this need to apologize for who I am. I am uncomfortable in my own skin. I just never feel good enough. Smart enough. Interesting enough – and it is so limiting. It stops me from enjoying other people and makes my life smaller.
I recognize this in myself – now I just need to find a way to break this pattern of thought/behavior.
And that is something I will start working on.