be closer to my family

I think in order for me to be closer to my immediate family I need to move out. I just don’t feel like I can really be myself, or figure out who I really am, while I’m living here. I find that I try to avoid certain situations by altering my actions or by just keeping quiet. I think I would be able to be braver about who I am and probably appreciate our time together more if I wasn’t around them all the time.

Went to the movies with my parents yesterday. I was supposed to go shopping with my mom afterwards but I ran into a friend of mine and we went to get dinner. So now I’m hoping that can do our shopping today.

It’s not much but at least we are spending more time together.

We had a BBQ today and although we didn’t have a whole lot of family here a few people still showed up. It was nice to just sit around and talk for a while. Then later me and my mom went out shopping. We haven’t spent a whole day shopping in so long.

All around it was a really good day spent with family. Hope to have more of this.

Me and my family get along I just don’t feel that we are as close as we could be. Most of my immediate family lives in the same city so this should be easy right? But it seems like we only get together for the holidays…rarely any other time. So we are all on our best behavior and it doesn’t seem real. I don’t feel like we allow each other to see how we really are.

I live with my parents so I see them all the time but it doesn’t seem like quality time. I think that I am old enough now that we can have a real relationship but where to start?