Heal

I still have my mood swings and I still get kinda depressed every now and then (not to mention how panicky I can be while driving), but all in all I’m getting so much better. I’m letting go of the accident emotionally. I can’t sit in a movie theater for too long and my neck was acting up today, but it’s nothing like it was 4 months ago.

Still haven’t taken any pills. I start physical therapy sometime this month. It took my doctor forever and a day to get me a referral, but she finally did.

Now that the pinched nerve went away, and stayed away. I haven’t taken ANY pills since 7.25 =D That’s the longest I’ve been without them since 6.10. I’m very, very pleased. I still have a pharmaceutical arsenal in my medicine cabinet, but I’ve happily pushed them out of sight.

I can’t turn my head to the left, and haven’t been able to since yesterday… This sucks.

I can lift my arm over my head again, but it hurts. Not bad though, which is an improvement. My doctor put me on an arthritis medication and it seems to be working. I can’t drink alcohol or eat anything that could cause heartburn. Blech =(. So it’s not fun, but I am healing. I need to contact my doctor to see when I can start physical therapy.

have left me sorta broken. Inside and out. I can’t raise my left arm past my chest and I can’t drive a car without my heart racing. I wish I had visible damage so people around me would be like “Wow, she’s hurt” instead of “What the heck’s wrong with her? Why is she bitching so much?”. It seems like when there’s no visible damage it’s harder for people to accept and be sensative to the fact that there IS indeed damage. I don’t want a pity party, I just don’t want people thinking I can do more than I actually can. Just because I’m not crying doesn’t mean I don’t hurt. Until my close peoples realize this it’s going to be hard to heal.