Have a totally different life by this time next year

I am really starting to use my pda to keep up with my schedule. I seemed like a lot of work at first, but it is working for me. And I like it.

I am finally seeing progress. So much has changed. It’s good. I’m heading in a direction that finally seems right. Yay!

I am moving! YAY!

I finally see that I am making some real progress on the goal. A couple of weeks ago I went to 7 day seminar at The Legacy Center (http://www.thelegacycenter.com/). That training really helped me with my perspective on my life, but mainly it helped me with my outlook about myself. It’s 4 am and I am leaving later this morning to go back for the advanced part of the training so I am going back to sleep and I will write more when I get a chance. The training is intense and a bit draining, but the results are practically miraculous. I have changed so much. I have not had one down day since I completed my training. I haven’t even had one mediocre day. Every day has been phenomenal. Best $300 I ever spent. 4.

I’ve been struggling in the worst way for over a month now. I was feeling so desperate today. My brother said something negative to me last night and it made me plummet even further. I wish people would be careful with their words. They can be so careless and not consider how it makes the other feel, not to speak of how they respond.

1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4frZ0CPkMh4&feature=related

2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0apdA5gyrv8&feature=related

3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oo4Im46vGKE&feature=related

4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Izu6bTGnhQY&feature=related

5 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7OmJ8Mnt5o&feature=related

6 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6P9spxrmIM

7 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1Dp7G_RwM4&NR=1

8 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKZk8Q45elA&feature=related

9 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CKPvvPC6haM&feature=related

10 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1z1AtrpLVI&NR=1

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I didn’t list my outline yet. I took the entire day yesterday and cleaned my living space. I can think and sleep better when my space is not cluttered but orderly. Clutter sucks my energy away and makes me feel lethargic. Orderliness makes me feel empowered, like “What’s next?”

I can do my outline tonight while at my mom’s house.

I have to get a plan for each of the areas I listed on paper. Well, I think I will list it here instead.

I need to change in the following areas:

Emotionally

Spiritually

Mentally

I tend to see things from a positive view for a while, then I take a closer look and see the bad things I was ignoring before. My perception is within my control. I choose to view things honestly and truthfully in order to avoid being a victim in situatins where this is avoidable.

At times I still put others before myself. This has to stop now.

I need to think quicker on my feet and I need to think more thoroughly before I open my mouth.

Physically

I know I need to get back into the gym but I keep putting it off. Meanwhile, I am totally unhappy with how my body looks.

The foods I eat have a direct impact on how I look and feel, of course. But when I want something I shouldn’t eat I tell myself that I will be dedicated tomorrow, which never comes.

Financially

I have to pay off my student loans. I have drug them out for years and they are holding me back.

I have 2 more credit cards that I overlooked. This is horrible. I’m afraid to look at my credit score. I have to pay these 2 bills off.

I need a serious retirement plan put in place. I have to educate myself more about finances.

Intellectually

I am applying to NYU and Columbia as an MBA candidate for Fall 2009. Once my business is up and running I may have to rethink this, but at this point it’s all about upward mobility.

Relationships

I want a core of reliable friendships that are local to me. Alice seens like she may end up being a good friend. Sako will most likely be more of a mentor for my sewing techniques. We’ll see how this shapes up.

I want to love someone again. My life has spiraled since Rob and I called it quits. It may be sad to admit, but it is true; I do better in my life when I have a reliable relationship.

Career

I have to get my business off the ground. Fashion is absolutely demanding and grueling. It is beyond my comprehension to continue working this hard for someone ele. %{color:blue}I plan to have my business up and running by this time next year (actually, by the end of this year). I have to work quickly because I want more options by the end of February.