Get my groove back

Mostly, I would just like to chill the fuck out and stop feeling so damn angry all the time.

That would be groovy.

I wa a military brat growing up.

I was that shy kid who would hide behind my mommy’s legs, peeking around just to stick my tongue out and growl.

I never lived anywhere for more than 2-3 years, and I never outgrew the shyness.

I made some close friends in high school, but we drifted away after we all graduated and got jobs.. Everybody moved so far away,

I guess where I was already so antisocial, when all 3 of my friends left, I recluded further.

I don’t make phone calls.

I don’t even have a phone.

I haven’t spoken to my friends in years,
and now I’m getting more and more weirded out by people.

I don’t open up well.

I don’t make friends easy.

I don’t keep close contacts.

and i’m so damn lonely it hurts.