Find a good man

I think since I’ve started dating again, I’ve grown more at ease with being single and being out of a serious relationship. I feel kind of weird having “Find a Good Man” as a “thing to do”. I think that in time it will just happen, and maybe thats what’s good and bad about it. You can’t plan it, or set a dead line, it just happens.

I was watching this movie the other day, where the main character (a guy) does this really unselfish act for this woman that he befriends. He had really just met this woman but he was so loving and caring. While watching it, I was thinking “That’s what I want. I want a guy who will love me like that. I want a guy with integrity, and compassion.” It was then that I realized that the men that I’ve been dating are not anything like that. They’re men that I feel I have to “save” in some way, even though they clearly don’t want that from me. But I’m tired of that. I feel like they pull me down with them. I want someone who is going to bring me up. Someone who I can admire.

I feel lonely, but I don’t want to give into that. I don’t want to date someone just to have someone. I might have to wait a while, but its worth it if I meet the right person. Sometimes I feel like I’m being blindly optimistic. Its so hard being patient, and having hope.