Believe in myself

Newsflash. I do believe in myself..I have a lovely husband, really great friends and a family that I love and rub along fine with.
Its definitely the job. I work in a marketing agency where the way to get on is to be ballbreaking, go ahead and aggressive. And that’s just not me. Sure I got promoted and they could do with a few quieter, more surefooted people who just get on with the work around here but I’m simply a square peg in a round hole. So time to get out despite the fact that the work itself is interesting and good for my CV. Watch this space. I reckon it’ll take me 6 months.

We’re two appraisals on now (I get one every 6 months). The April one was pretty good and the October was well..really very good and I got promoted.
So its great..I’m where I want to be career wise. Yep, really great. A whole new round of validation is now required. I was relieved to get promoted but now I’m scared that I’m not good enough at my new level and feeling slightly nauseous on Sunday nights. I know I need to stop beating myself up about it but knowing doesn’t really help.

How do I convince myself I’m worthy?!

I’ve got my bi annual appraisal at work tomorrow. I’ve worked my ass off for the last 6 months but I’m still worried that there will be some ‘areas where I could have done better’. I guess I need to believe in myself a bit more. The irony is, if you met me at work you’d never see the doubt, just my calm, confident face.

We’ll see how it goes, wish me luck.