Let go of the past

i feel like a complete idiot ok heres the thing i have been talking to my ex tommy for the last month he wont answer my calls or texts and here i am trying to get him to answer like he actually cares i should know i mean i havent seen him in like two years when i kinda just up and left but we have been talking on and off for the last two years i mean its not like HEY I havent talked to you in two years im going to randomly call out of nowhere even though thats what he always did now its like im not worth returning my calls he has only talked to me once which only confused me more i mean i told him i was coming down for a college and that i could see him he said he was excited and all that shit but then just kept ignoring my other calls im such an idiot