Keep moving forward

...I think I can, I think I can, I think I can…

I went to the opening of my friend’s gallery tonight. I ran into lots of friends from my art life that I haven’t seen in a long time. Felt more at home and excited than I have in a long time too. I think I’ve forgotten how wonderful it is just being in the company of like-minded people who know me well. Such a confidence boost. I have
been hiding myself away from everyone since I didn’t feel comfortable sharing my troubles. Well, now they all know – and it’s still okay. Just another step…

I’ve called most of my siblings about our separation and left a message for one. These hours spent on the phone have been totally draining and uplifting all at once. The announcement and the explanations and the details (and holding it together)- exhausting. The resulting conversations, feelings shared and connection -wow.

I will actually be with all six of my siblings this weekend in the Midwest so I am so glad to have the initial piece over with – I want the focus to be more where it should be on my baby brother’s 30th. It’s nice to have all the support and wisdom.
I know why we kept the whole thing quiet for so long but still – I wish now I had gone to my family earlier.