Get therapy.

After 4+ weeks of speaking to several different people in the process of getting a therapist, I had my 1st real session yesterday. I am sure I managed to scramble her head a bit as I jumped around from subject to subject.

It was soooo draining…Came home and slept 6 hrs straight! Hell, I am lucky if I can get 3-4 hrs a night and 2 hrs with a nap. Only problem is that now I gotta wait another 2 wks before I go again. But at least I am going!

I had my assessment today, yeah I am real crazy. They are putting me on long term therapy which just means it’s more than 6 months worth. I go in on Monday for an orientation and at the end of the month I see the Dr. Sometime between the 2 appts someone will contact me about counseling.

I don’t think I will count this done until later as I might have a breakdown and just not go. But I feel good about this.

Well I made it to my initial intake. Tuesday they are giving me a full assessment. Turns out that just because I am on SSI, I am not guaranteed therapy via Medicaid. So I hope I am crazy enough.

Step one accomplished! I’ve made an appointment for an intake screening. I’ve been waking up at night from nightmares having a panic attack. This has been going on a little bit for the last 2 years but several times a week this past month.

Curious fact though, while talking to the appointment lady I realized that for the last month I haven’t had any medical marijuana. I take it for physical disabilities, but I guess it really does help my anxiety.

Step two will be just as hard, keeping the appt. If my anxiety level gets too high I am likely to reschedule my appt. But with ya’ll giving me all your CHEERS, I feel good about being able to make it.

Thanks to everyone here!

I have to change my Paxil dosage to become more creative but Doc won’t do that until I see a therapist.