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Havent been writing lately, thought that I should start up again with a piece I read by Tzvi Freeman

“Perpetual Struggle

By Tzvi Freeman

Some think life is all about doing good and keeping away from evil. To them, struggle has no purpose of its own—to have struggled is to have failed. Success, they imagine, is a sweet candy with no trace of bitterness.

They are wrong, very wrong. Struggle is an opportunity to reach the ultimate, when darkness itself becomes light. In the midst of struggle, an inner light is awakened. Light profound enough to overwhelm the darkness, encasing it and winning it over.

But if darkness never fights back, how will it ever be conquered?”

http://nopornpledge.com/

It is easy and may help us all stop using porn.

Many have already signed up each day.

I have decided to jump right up to a month without MB, I feel so confident and I hope I will be able to nail it. I am thinking that friday will be the toughest for me, but if I just do all my homework right away than go in with my brother I will be okay.

I really don’t want to look at porn so if I am on the verge I may have to MB without it so that I don’t look at it at all costs. Don’t know, but if I nail a month and am able to MB at the first of the month and not do it for another month I think I will have tested and tried myself enough to be able to quit entirely.

This whole experiment of conditioning the body to not go insane after failing has taught me that a simple change in strategy can be the best way to break the cycle of MB, quit, MB a lot, quit, MB alot Quit etc…

Keep it up all, at least we are trying to quit not just succumbing to mindless self indulgence.

I’m feeling so good today!!

First off, though I MB today, it was planned, no porn etc, and I actually was able to intentionally stop from having a full on ejaculation so I will retain most of my testosterone and I will still have energy. My next goal is 8 days but it is not even a challenge. I easily could have not done it today, but I am following a gradual plan so that I don’t fail, but seriously it is so damn easy. I am not guilt tripping myself and all, and I have total control over my urges. I give them a little and they don’t bother me till I combust. It is really harmony in action with my sexuality.

Every week I will try to go more days till a month, and hopefully I can master a somewhat non-ejaculatory orgasm so I don’t waste testosterone and after a while of my body getting used to the month thing I will quit. But in my opinion it is better to do it 12 times a year than 200-300 times a year. even every two weeks is better than that up and down cycle where you quit for 2 days and fail and do it 2 times that day etc.

Girls and Guys, I don’t want to count my chickens but I think I am through with my addiction! I can’t believe how good I feel right now, but again I must be wary about even Victorias Secret commercials (I HATE THEM!!!!) or things like that because that could get me going and that would have me on their website probably pretty easily. But then again, I have had ample chances lately to go on the internet and MB but without filters I have kept from doing it. I also have been throwing away all my mom’s JCPenny or Kohls magazines cause those have tripped me up in the past.

Everyone keep it up and wish me luck I think Ill be done with the whole habit by new years or around that time.

I was reviewing my archives, in the form of Microsoft One Note, they are pretty impressive actually but I found this. It pertains to this goal very well.

It is a buddhist story but has no precepts that any one will disagree with.

A BAG OF NAILS

Once upon a time there was a little boy with a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he should hammer a nail in the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. But gradually, the number of daily nails dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the first day came when the boy didn’t lose his temper at all. He proudly told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
“You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out, it won’t matter how many times you say ‘I’m sorry’, the wound is still there.”

Like it! I find it a very great thing. Maybe we should do this, nail in the fence for every time we fail and we can only pull out the nail if we go farther than we did the last time before failing. I can’t cause my family will think I am crazy for randomly nailing into a fence but I love the thought. I guess I could do it every time I had a temper too. Just think on it.

I am doing fantastic!!

I am starting my college searching so have not thought about it at all really.

I have applied to Northern Arizona University but that is just my in state option, I am planning though, to go to Colorado State University, to study Forestry.

I just have been so happy lately it is overflowing. It could just be school being back in session or the fact that I have been way more social since school started but I have been very joyous.

Joy is what we get not doing it just remember that!

Another really good one that pertains to people who are stuck in a bad cycle like this same as us,

here it is, make sure to read it, it has only one instance where it quotes the Jewish Sages but not one part of it is based on any one religion or the other.

Id like all of you even Christians, Muslims or Atheists to just read it because it is a very enlightened piece of work

http://www.chabad.org/blogs/blog_cdo/aid/710666/jewish/Get-Me-Out-of-Here.htm

BTW I am doing amazing, I have total control, i think it is like Tuesday when i will do it again, and then I am upping it to a week BETWEEN MB again an I will do that for 2 weeks I think, and then up it to like a week and 2 days and just start to go longer each time till I get to a month in between which will be tough but I just need to do it for a few months (once a month) and then see where it goes from there, but for now this is really working out, it is not like the last times where after I did it I would do it again that day and then do it daily for a couple days, after I do it in a controlled mindset, I don’t even think about it very much and if I am horny I don’t feel the need to take care of it.

Thanks for all your support again, and I will give you mine.

Well I am doing good, I feel like I have a lot of control since I changed the mentality I have on quiting, which is good. But the best thing is that I have not felt lust nor looked up any bad stuff at all, no filters for the past week or two and there have been barely any rough patches.

Congrats to all who have gone for over a week but especially to those trying but faltering now, you will all break through just keep trying nothing gets done in one shot so if it is the best you can do, do it. Getting on here is the first step.

Instead of yelling STOP STOP STOP, whenever you feel the slightest urge, just say or meditate on this, it is the prayer of a recovering crack addict I read about on a Jewish website on an article written by a Rabbi who helps drub addicts, the prayer that this one crack addict said was, “Please G-d, help me find in You what I am looking for in the drug (replace with “in masturbation”).”

Here is the whole article, it is not a religious article BTW. READ IT!!! I read all of your links :(

http://www.chabad.org/blogs/blog_cdo/aid/710680/jewish/Holy-Cravings.htm

I have been on my program of decreasing the amount I MB a week to lessen my need for it, I have been going two days in between each day I do MB. I know this seems radical and seems to most as failing, but honestly, I feel like it is easier to stop looking at naked girls, and today I realized that, though I am kind of horny, that it is okay to be horny, and I am all alone I could do it but I really don’t want to, because I am controlling myself. Now i will up it to 3 or 4 days before I do it (if I even want to do it which is unlikely).

What I am trying to do is to condition my body to not need it for a week, and then two and at that point I may just forget to even do it, I hope that this will lead to my BODY not even needing masturbation, and all the while I am developing my mind to have the willpower not to look at porn.

Plus this conditioning will probably help me lose weight because even if I fail I will be used to not doing it for a week or more so, anyway, I am hoping this will work for me. I am happy to see you guys succeeding and for those failing, I would recommend finding a method that works for you, and roll with it.

Find out the science behind MB and all that and figure out something that works for you. All of us have been using these unique methods (i find that cool) based on who we are. I for instance failed because I would convince myself it was normal, and though I still believe and know that it is natural for the body to release semen and testosterone and whatever else (proven through the fact that we release it in our sleep) but right now I just read that it really only needs to be released every 2 weeks to a month or MORE, so I really don’t need to do it except every 2 weeks to a month. But daily, is an addiction. BTW, the whole alcoholic argument should not be used against this post because alcohol is not a natural need like the body’s need to release. Sorry I just don’t want people jumping down my throat because I still am mainly against porn and excessive MB (like every day or even every week, would like if I didn’t have to do it but 12 times a year).

I am also going to try the calender card thing,