find out what makes me happy

I’ve started rock climbing and I love it! This is something that makes me happy!

So I just wrote about how I want to get my son riding his dirtbike again and then thought about how as soon as he rode off my daughter would turn to me and say teach me! teach me! A smile crossed my face and I felt good.

I feel like doing this would help put me on the road to being a better parent and make me someone they could love and look up to. I know they love me but I would feel more deserving of their love. It would make our lives bigger and more fun and I love the thought of that.

I’ve learned that what makes me happy today is kind of the same thing that made me happy yesterday, family, friends and love. I need to keep working hard on keeping my own family with me despite being an every other weekender and feeling like an outcast most of the time. I have to make sure I am still a good friend to the ones I still have and deserve my friendship. I should treat myself better too.