Get over it

I watch the Sex and the City movie yesterday and one of the situations present reinforced my decision in that relationship years ago. Even though it is just a movie it questioned why women live for everyone but themselves. That person expected me to live for them. When I said no the guy in question got angry. How dare I? And right on queue I felt bad (what is it about us women and guilt?). But even when guilty I still questioned why I was expected to live for this person. Why? Simply because I am female? Why is it we are not willing to write our own roles?

This week has been good. I feel indifferent and looking forward to the rest of my life.

Today I feel indifferent about talking to HIM recently. Getting over it…for me.

In my previous message I felt better. Then HE contacted me. Telling me about the latest with his life. Initially I felt indifferent…”awww, that is good everything is going so well.” Over the last 24 hours my feeling changed to “wonder what he said when he said that. Was he lying about his life going so well.” I don’t know how I will feel in two days..in a week. Grrrr…just when I thought I was getting over it.

The last two days I have been feeling better. It is amazing how remote interest from another changes my view. Although I want to do this because I got over it for me not for someone else.