live without pain

I’m resigned that I will never live without pain. The best I think I can shoot for is to manage my pain. I think that’s a good goal.

This goal is not going well. Pain is getting worse and led to an ER visit today. My legs are getting pretty numb and I’m not moving around to great. Emergency MRI was negative, of course. At least the doc was compassionate enough to give me some pain meds to help me get through the next few days. Should make finals interesting, though. I’m a realist and don’t think I’ll ever be without pain. I just want to find a way to manage it effectively.

I’ve had a bad back for six years (a third of my life) and it seems to be getting worse. All the films have come back negative, but I know there’s something wrong with it. I’ve done everything-physical therapy, injections, exercise, rest-nothing’s worked. Now I’m back in physical therapy three times a week and I’m dilligently doing the exercises at home. I hope it works, this time. I’m not expecting it to ever be completly 100%—just at place where its a little more managable and I can get back to playing sports more competitively.