well-being

I have to stop this sickening game of putting barriers and walls from ppl, as soon as someone gets close, some stupid old habit will kick in and i have to stop this shit. At first i think theres smth wrong will ppl i meet, but the common factor was always ME all along. I have missed out on soo many wonderful opportunities. I wasnt giving my all, giving myself fully to life. It does not matter if you get broken or chopped up, what matters is you given your all. Give your all in everything, with all your heart, all your might…...

its ok to be unhappy, its ok to be miserable, its ok to be in breakdown, we are unhappy because we dont let ourselves feel whatever we need to feel , as if there is something wrong if we are not happy, WE DO NOT NEED TO BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME, its ok to be depressed, just feel whatever you are feeling right NOW, let it be, accept your feelings, no matter how it sux, allow yourself to feel the true you, rather than denying the now, it is weird when you find that there is peace and a relaxed state even though you are sad or lonely, embrace the you right now, as that is the best you and there is no other you than this awesome you, all warts and bruises, knocked down, but not giving in…....

Was totally out of character, out of what I stand for, was rudely waving the middle finger to a van driver who honked me on my motorbike, even though it was really my fault riding like a maniac. Felt good, fully expressed, but later on regretted on this because this is totally the opposite of bringing peace and tranquility to this world. Gotta try harder next time. Its not about you.

Its all about following my heart, trusting, being vulnerable, not being self conscious, being honest, giving my all, becoming the best me, pushing my boundaries, taking action, smiling, laughing, being playful…....

I’ll only be 25 once. Dance like no one is watching, love as if I have never been hurt…..

Wihuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu