take more risks

I read my last entry on this goal and had to double-check to see if it was truly my entry.
It’s so reasonable =P

It’s always good to go back and review these. It’s taken me a little more effort than I expected, and I still haven’t cut unhealthy strings entirely. It seems as though I’m constantly in “what if” mode. I need to step back and review the objective inventories I’ve done.

I thought engaging in a relationship right now would be a risk worth taking. I attempted to take that risk and was thrown aside. And I’m STILL sitting there…

I suppose the true risk would be to walk away, and as in my last entry, simply be within myself. Just exist and take in the view of everything around me. Learn. Instead of doing, just being…

I’ve always been an action person, and it may be in that action I’ve limited myself. Simply going with the tide may get me farther than attempting to fight against it. No, I don’t know where it will take me, but at least there’s a chance I’ll get away from my current circumstance.

In action, I’ve created the stagnation I so despise!

Epiphany moment ;)

and being truly independent. Not under the thumb or scrutiny of another, and not putting myself in such a position. It’s a risk, but even if I don’t want to do it, given the certain toxic and alienating people in my life who appear to have such a sense of self-entitlement so as to exploit me, I need to do this. I need to act according to what is in my best interests right now, because no one else seems to be.

It’s time for me to take time and cherish myself. And that means stepping away and wiping the slate clean.

is to live the lifestyle I desire to live. To live the one I seem to have fallen into naturally. To simply be who I am, unabashedly.
I’m having tons of fun with this one!

is simply letting go. It is being open to say the things I need to say that will take care of me, and damn the consequences. I was fine before this. I’ll be fine after this.

I was taught to live safely. Slowly.

Take a chance, and change might happen. Why would I want to continue doing what’s safe if that has never made me happy?