relinquish control

Pushing through to achieve my goals can sometimes cause others to push me away.
I am too intimidating. I push too hard.
I’ll relax my fist and open my palms to what the world has to offer me.

I’m not a religious person, but I do value the following prayer:

“Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

It is time to step back. I suppose I am afraid of being forgotten and fading into nonexistence in the minds of those I love and cherish. If that’s to be, however, then that’s just the way it is. And I deserve more- I should not have to kick and scream just to remain in existence in the minds and memories of others.
I deserve to be loved and cherished as well. And I know this.
I think that’s where the frustration comes in.

I actually care deeply about people, though I come across as nonsocial. But I cannot control them. I can only focus and control myself.