stop being so insecure

Wore my ugly ol glasses the past two weeks, didn’t be a hermit hiding from the world, and now have 2 more weeks to wear them until my lasek surgery on Aug 9.

And what is with guys saying “wow, the glasses make you look really smart”. Jeez, do I look like an idiot without them?

I have wanted to investigate lasek eye surgery and finally decided to make the initial consultation appt. This is something I have thought about for a very long time.

But the thought of wearing my glasses for 2 whole weeks before I could have the appointment nearly made me throw that idea in before it started. I hate my old glasses, I only wear contact lenses and it doesn’t make sense to buy new glasses to wear only for a little while so that leaves me stuck with these ones.

So now I find myself wearing my glasses but not wanting to go out in them. And since I am blind as a bat without them, then am I going to be silly enough to condemn myself to not going out anywhere?

Stupid, I know, but as soon as I put them on, I still feel like that gawky little kid in wierd glasses that used to get teased and it doesn’t matter that I am grown and totally unlike that child, I still feel like I am 11 and totally insecure about it.

So fine. I am insecure about it, but I will NOT buy new glasses. I will NOT stay cooped up in the house like a hermit. I will pin my hair up with whispy bits hanging down and accent my face WITH glasses. I will make my lasek consultation.

eeeeeek.