i got really depressed over the day.
i had yoga in the morning, that was ok (fun!).
but, i got lost going to the first session of a new art class i’m starting, and was late. i got really stressed. i thought about not going at all as i was 15 minutes late and driving around. i felt like i’d be so disrespectful for walking in late. but, really, it’d be more disrespectful to no-show. and, i wanted to be there! kind of a fear of judgement thing, but i decided that i was the best judge of my situation, and it was all good.
my teacher is really cool. i like her a lot. she started us out with picking out a masterpiece and turning it upsidedown to paint it.
it was a little over my head because i’d never even put paint to canvas before. it’s a beginner/intermediate class. i’m going to have to be humble. many of the paintings came out real nice -some great artists in my class. i got 2/3 of the way finished, and it’s like big blocks of dark color. primitive is the word i thought of. i didn’t even know that acrylic dries out as you work, so i put out a bunch of paints, worked real focused on blue, and my other stuff dried out. it was actually quite a good learning experience, i learned a lot – trial by big fire style.
well, there’s the starting point. i’m going to go get some more art supplies today and work on it over the week before the next class.
anywho, i got home and just felt shitty. if i was a crier, i’d have been crying.
it was a day of eating crappy food on the run, perhaps a better plan than a huge mocha and then just a couple of pb cups to keep me going until 5 would have resulted in a more stable mood and ability to focus.
so, i gave myself props for getting the things i wanted checked off, mostly, for the day and went and took a nap. my drive was telling me that i HAD to finish some code and such, but i took a nap.
and, guess what? i woke up in a better mood, got all my coding done, and it all worked out ok.
perhaps my inner mood compass is there for a reason? tee hee.
