lose some weight

If I ever want to achieve this goal I must exercise a lot more. Right now the only exercise I get is iceskating for an hour a week. Ok, I don’t count the fact that I ride my bike to my internship and every place else and I do have to walk a bit during my internship, but I wouldn’t call that real exercise.

The thing is, in about 2 or 3 months I will move to Prague. I don’t want to get a membership at the gym because most of them are for a year and I can only go there for 2 months, so I pay a lot of money for time I cannot spend. I could start running in my own time, it’s free, but I do not have enough willpower to hold on to a runningschedule. On the other hand, I might wait till I move to Prague and start exercising at the university gym. I’m sure they must have one!

Hmm, I’m having one of those episodes again where I feel totally insecure about myself. Even the smallest comment from a guy/friend about how he thinks the girl walking across the street is ‘hot’ makes me feel really bad about myself. Why don’t guys say that about me? It really makes me feel sad without a real reason. I’m not interested in the friend saying it, so he can like whoever he wants, but somehow it hurts a bit when guys talk about really nice looking girls and don’t consider the fact that I’m standing right next to them overhearing what they say. It’s like I’m not in the same league as those girls that they are talking about. Well, usually I don’t care, but every once in a while I have a period of a couple of weeks in which I’m really insecure about the way I look and also the things I do, I feel my best is never good enough. I know it is not realistic wanting to be the smartest, prettiest and nicest girl around, but still I want to be that person. Eventhough I know she doesn’t exist. It’s like wanting to be a Disney princess.

Ok, so how does that relate to this goal? My weight offcourse is one off the biggest problems I have with my appearance, next to my teeth. So right now I feel really restless inside. I want to loose weight and it has to be now! I’ve been fanatically looking for the batteries for my scale for over half an hour now and still haven’t found them. I need to know my current weight right now, so I can start loosing the weight again! Aargh.

It’s ridiculous! I’ve been eating healthy. Cosuming less than the 2000 kcalories you should have per day (about 1500), but still I’ve lost only 300 gram in two weeks! I must say that isn’t very motivating. Also, in other attempts eating like this would have lost me almost a whole kilo. Well, I’m not giving up yet. In two weeks when my holiday starts I’m also going to jog. Some more excercise should help me loose weight faster.

This goal has been on my list for a long time. Also it has known ups and downs. Right now I’m at 69.2 Kg. I’m really thinking of changing my goal of 65 kg to 67 kg. I’ve never actually got below the 67 kg anyway. Maybe my body’s natural weight is just somewhere around my current weight. I’m not slim build. Not that I care about my build too much, some curves are good! But I looked better when I was at 67, so I’m going back to that again!

Ok, so after my holiday I gained weight again :(. I know it, eventhough I haven’t weighted myself properly. I think I’m back at about 70 Kg. Time to pick this up again, I was doing so well, so I know I can do this. Also I decided that when (and if) I reach 65 Kg I can have some professional photo’s taken of myself. This is another goal of mine, because I just want some nice photos in which I look beautiful :). I’ll look even better when those few Kgs are gone, so it will be a good reward.

After the holidays I gained some weight again. I’m now back at 69 kgs :(. Time to get my eating habits in order again. Also I’m going to the gym today and workout, real hard. I want to be back at at least 68 as soon as possible (within two weeks, that should be very do-able)!

This goal is going soooooo slow, but hey at least I’m losing weight and not gaining it. Checked thursday and I was at 67.8 kg. Only 2.8 kg to go :D.

I had a holiday and I felt I could have some extra food and drinks while it was holiday. I really dreaded going on the scale afterwards, but it turned out the damage wasn’t that bad. This morning I was actually 68.3 kg :D. I didn’t eat very unhealthy during the holiday, so I guess that did the trick. I just drank a lot of cola, which is calorie rich offcourse. I’m almost halfway on my weightloss goal :D.

Yay! :D:D:D:D Lost 2.6 kg since the start and need to loose another 3.6 kg. I feel good about my weightloss so far. Most difficult thing will be to keep the weight off I think, but i’ll see when I get to the ‘magical’ 65 kg.

Yay! 69.2 kg this morning! My losing weight isn’t going fast, but at least I’m losing some of it. Still 4.2 kg to go to my goalweight. I’ve been to the gym again yesterday. Excersized for 45 min. and after that I thought it was enough. I’m not really fond of fitness, but I’ll try to go more often. I think going twice a week for 45 min. is better then once a week for an hour and a half, so maybe I should aim at short but regular exercize instead of once for a long time. My eating habits are really really really improving (but I’ll write about that in my other goal). I still allow myself one day in the weekend to drink cola instead of water and have some snacks (which I sometimes don’t even want!), so that day losing weight kinda stalls.

I’ve been at 66 kg before, so I know I can do that again (and hopefully lose that last kg too). Soemhow it was going a lot faster last time. Ah well, I shouldn’t complain. Losing weight over a longer period of time is better for you anyway :D.