I can’t help but feel like im being selfish. Unfortunately the situation that im putting myself first in ends with someone getting hurt. at the same time the end result feels so worth it. I feel like for the first time im actually getting something i want in my life and things are actually going my way. And im happy that this is the one thing i have truly gone after.
iv been told im too selfless and that i put everyone else first making sure everyone else is happy over my own.
i just wish that getting what i want and putting myself first didnt mean i would hurt someone else at the same time.
so for now i wont say that iv actually put myself first. and wish there was a way for me to get what i want and not break someones heart at the same time.
sigh.
