lose weight

I guess I will see. Ill be posting regularly once again. Tracking my weight as it goes and my eating habits and ups and downs. =]

Things have been going better. Havent weighed myself.
Im going on a road trip to CALI and Ive decided I wont weigh myself again until I get back.

Its been a LONG LONG time since ive posted or visited.
Just wondering if anyone here is 17 and around 5’3. Send a message or comment. =]

I realized what I was doing wrong. We tend to get impatient with this goal and do alot of things that jeopardize us in the long run that set us back. Thats what happened to me. Im starting college in the fall and so Id like to take advantage of the freedom of home cooking (although school wont be too far).

So today I rode the bus to school. I was on the phone with a friend when the people sitting next to me brought up how skinny their fingers were. the girl said to the other. “Youre anorexic.” The guy was then like im not effin anorexic…you are….So they go into this whole speel about how they arent anorexic because they dont make themselves throw up! WTH??? I had to pause my conversation for a second. Then one of them remarked that there is another disease where you starve yourself and throw up called ??...and then they didnt have a nme for it so i said “bulimia.” Thats usually when the people throw up. Anorexia isnt. this other guy sitting there opposed that and said i was wrong. How do you tell me im wrong when I effin had to live the eating disorder nightmare with a friend. My best friend had anorexia (still battles with it) and I remember once we were in a restaurant with friends and I saw her battling with herself while everyone else ordered. She burst out crying and ran out. I already knew about her anorexia. I ran after her and we sat there crying while everyone else was like WTH is going on? Now I hate it when people make all these stupid jokes about how they do it to themselves and if they wanted to stop they could just eat and get it over with. It doesnt work like that dammit! You dont starve to 89 pounds for the sake of it. You dont go down to 89 pounds just to pass out, turn purple when you sleep, get your food through your nose, hate food, lose your friends and family, get strange looks. Really Im (seriously sorry im P’’’ offed right now. I had to stop myself before i started a lecture about it. They kept going on and on about it spilling useless and untrue info and facts. Oh my goodness. I think ill stop now.

If I keep up what I did today then there is no question at all. :D HAHA

So after school today we went to the schools gym where the wrestlers condition. At 3:30 we began a 10 minute “jog” around the gym. By “jog” he pretty meant run. No stopping. I pushed myself and ran the whole thing. Next we stopped and streched out. Next we split into 2 groups for suicides (across the long side of the gym). A fast group and a slow group. Me and the girls of course picked the slow group. Once again the name decieves because you still have to run your ass off. So both groups took turns running while he timed us. Sometimes he made us go back to back. After that we lined up along the longside of the gym and sprinted to the black line, when we got there we we did 10 pushups and then sprinted back and repeated. im not even sure how long we did this but it felt like a long time. Facing the same side we had to get a partner and drag them holding them under their shoulders slowly across the short side of the gym and then together sprint back then switch sides. The idea was to work the bootay. Then we had to get our partners on our back and sprint across and together sprint back. AND THEN we had to cradle our partners and walk 5 steps and squat with them. _{HeCk no} I didnt do that. There was no way I could squat carrying a person. However I did carry my partner and “sprint” across. We also did wheelbarrows. Our partner held our legs. We took 3 “hand steps” and did a pushup. First one I fell on my face. baHAHA but after that i managed to do a couple. Then we switched positions. Im almost done with what I actually did hold on :D. So we also “actually jogged” the short side of the gym and turned the corner fast and sprinted the long side and turned and “jogged” and then turned fast and sprinted. This also took forever.

Haha yeah thats what I can think of now. I might have left something out. This is alot longer than I thought and I dont feel like re-reading. I left early because my ride had to go to work. I was there 1 hour. Next time I go Im going to stay longer because I left when they were about to go upstairs and I know they do planks and wall sits without the wall? Air sits? Mid air squat? Dont know what they are called lol. Then they start bitch slapping (exuse the language)each other around. lol. Not really but they have to take turns being pushed around. I wonder if their Coach would make us do that too.. Only time will tell I guess.

When me and one of the girls who was there were in the car on the way home I could not talk or breath in without having coughing fits. It was weird. It has not happened before. My throat felt dry ( I think thats because I was breathing through my mouth instead of breathing through the nose and exhaling through the mouth). I drank water but it didnt help. Only about 5 minutes later could i really talk. I kept laughing and having coughing fits. My friend was like brenda are you okay? and I would start to reply or actually get out a yeah im okay and then start coughing :D Today has been interesting.

My butt is sore. My sides hurt. This is different because it usually takes longer for me to feel sore. I love it and hate it. Next week we do it again. They might start having morning workouts and I’d be able to go monday and tuesday and then try going on friday afternoons.

IF I keep this up…I can only begin to imagine how much change can happen.
EDIT: I need to work on my eating habits…:)

So tommorow after school me and wrestling cheerleaders (definately 2 out of 4 of them ) are watched them conditioning and it is so intense. they definately push you way beyond pain. if you think you can squat for one minute you will be there for 2. The coach and wrestlers are amazing though and it all works out for the best in the end. Conditioning is 3:30 to after 5:00 (yesterday they were still conditioning at 5:15 so i dont know.

I will update tommorow and tell you guys how it goes.

No/more/tping/like this:)

Anyhow, Im going to the gym today for 2 hours. Mix of cardio, weights, and strength training. I really need to work on my upper body strength considering i will be starting gymnastics soon or at least i hope to. I hope everyone’s day was great. =]

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I was at a visting a college near where I live sunday-today. I went to the gym yesterday and today. I also went last week on tuesday. I also walked around a whole lot because I had to move from one end of the campus to the other for all the planned functions for the people visiting. Im trying to gradually increase my workouts. My plan is to walk everyday for at least 30 minutes and then do another 30-45 minutes cardio/weights. Ive been drinking more water so thats one step in the right direction.

I havent weighed myself in the past 2 or 3 weeks but last time i had to be checked =] (we were practicing height and weight in class) i was 130. I got a reality check im not 5’3 as i previously thought. Im 5’1 and 3/4.

Im thinking of taking up classes and Im going for a free lesson tommorow to check the place out. Its ($50 per month) for 1 hour.

IM thinking of trying out for one colleges gymnastics/acrobatics team next year so hopefully this goes well. I havent done it in a long long time.

I ran a mile NONSTOP with the rest of the cheerleaders after practice today. Boy oh boy was I ready to pass out after =]. (I always stop and walk fast for a while and then run again )It felt good that I could do it though. Im working out again today before bed for 45 minutes and we are running together again on Wednesday.

Note: Me and one of the cheerleaders Trisha are going to be running together monday through wednesday and maybe some more later in the week. Im glad I have a running buddy =]