Live Without Fear

“morality” = fear???

I think this goal would better be titled to “live despite of fear” or to “lessen the amount of fear in my life”, but this goal is popular, and the entire point of the site is the whole group aspect, so yeah.

So yeah, even though this wasn’t a goal officially, Ive worked on it enough over the last year that it might as well have been, Im not afraid anymore, at least for the most part. everyday living scares me less, I only have one “big fear” left, so I thought I had this conquered, mostly at least.

But the more I look at this, the more I realize how many of my “choices”, while i thought were reasonably to keep myself safe, or to be moral, are basically rooted in fear; Im afraid to die, or to become addicted, or to be the outcast, Im afraid if I compromise morals that I can never be moral again…
If i do drugs, ill fry my brain..
If i hitchhike, ill get raped and die..
if i dont work 6 days a week, Ill starve..
If i love someone, theyll crush my emotions..
If i trust someone, theyll betray me..
If i dont go to college now, ill never make it through..
If i dont take what they tell me, ill never graduate…
If i enjoy school, ill go hopeless into debt…
If im honest with someone, theyll think im dumb and hate me…
If i go for it, I’ll get rejected, and Ill fail..
If i live my entire life In fear, ill never accomplish anything..

Common Sense, or fear?

Im not sure, i think a lot is silly, covert fear. And i dont like it. Im not entirely sure how to fix it, some fears are tangible, and can be faced. I was afraid of Mask removal in scuba diving, I kept working at it, and conquered the fear.
Im mildly afraid of needles, so as soon as Im 18, im going to start donating blood so that I can deal with this fear..
but how do we face the intanbgible fears, The only big thing(s) Im still afraid of is being all alone, and baffed out..
I saw someone who was once, and have feared this ever since, to see how entirely miserable they were.. but how do i stop fearing this if i cannot face it?

I watched a show once about new Zealand, some old guy said that he beleived everyone should do something they’re afraid of everyday; Eventually you were scared of a lot less..
So Im going to try to do one this, if i can think of something tangible each day..